My spirit might as well be in hell right now. When I say this, I don’t mean my butt is on fire and I’m skiing across the lake of fire on my asbestos skis. I mean, things are rough on very subtle and not so subtle levels. Yesterday, I was working in the garden and there were some leftover items in our garden cart that needed to move out of the way to get to the compost. Pushing the cart didn’t move it very far (how odd), and then without considering why I pushed it further and over it tipped. I got determined and I pushed the cart sideways out of the way with my hip on my way through, congratulating myself on not “even getting mad” at this turn of events. I will return to this story in a moment.
Astrologically, things are rough right now. They are damn rough. A close friend came by this morning asking what was up: “at least 3 friends were in serious crisis.” The planet is experiencing the 3rd of 7 Pluto Uranus squares and people be hatin’. When Uranus comes through the scene we find deep changes, new inventions, revolution, and higher awareness. We just LOVE changes right? We always embrace changes with open arms and a big smile. Well, if it comes bearing cheesecake that is. Most of the time our conditioning has us utterly panicking as change arrives. Depending on its house placement in our chart its effect often is felt as shocking, unpredictable, and erratic. Pluto brings destruction, transformation, and renewal. Its effect on our life (once again based upon its placement in our chart) is grinding, ruthless and extreme. And what happens when these two rogue cowboys are running amok on the planet at odds with each other? Look around. Who are we praying for right now?
So the real question is, we have 4 more of these, how do we get through? By educating our soul. Kabir Helminski says, “this education of the soul…is a process of awakening a presence that can initiate and sustain the activation of our latent human faculties.” We need ALL our faculties to be functioning folks, not latent. These transits through various aspects of our life educate our soul about our true relationship with the larger Reality (God, Universe, Divine Presence) and are a benevolent universe’s systematic removal of those obstacles to that knowledge. We get to become more real, more human!! This removal and re-creation process is essentially a process of deconditioning, reconditioning, and unconditioning.
Back to the garden cart (I didn’t forget!) On some level, I was moving forward trying to DO something that I set out to do (get through an obstacle course), making my yard look a certain way (cause that’s what responsible people do), interacting with the things in my care, all without pausing to figure out why perhaps the cart didn’t move. When I observe myself energetically and psychologically I discovered that I have conditioned myself to push myself through situations who qualities do not include that didn’t checking in and make changes to my trajectory based upon the truth of the situation vs my perceived understanding. Later I found out through my Father that my garden cart tires need to be filled and if they HAD moved very far I would have to replace my tires. My lack of presence into the situation then would have created more damage, facilitating more stress, and locking me into a pattern that I would then have to also respond to. And then I could congratulate myself about my mature response to the situation then too! (God bless my ego)
At the end of the day, my interaction with my garden cart is a metaphor, and it is also the physical reality. My actions with it and towards it is an indicator of the way in which I can often be unaware of what I am doing and why, the unexamined way in which I follow my inner programming assuming that my instinct or thoughts are the right or best way. It is this zombie response that shapes interactions and ultimately the direction of our friendships, our relationship to possessions, and the raising of our loved children. Right now, in this transit, this is the liability.
So, to get through this transit, we need to get real practiced at stepping back from the obstacles we are trying to push through. Examine that cart with our inner eye, use our reason and intuition around what we are trying to do and take to task the “whys” that formed those. Then, pray for guidance from the Higher Power (as you see it) since that Power sees farther than we do and then surrender to the outcome.
The control freak in all of us gets all medieval about surrender.
That desire to control and manipulate the outcome is oft directly related TO our social and cultural conditioning. While Pluto and Uranus might be impersonal in their systematic removal of those things that we sedimentally hold, the Universe does have our backs. Every single person on this planet is held and guided. The pain we are in, are coming out of, or might be coming, while difficult and not our idea of a good time, often has a noble purpose.
So if my heart can offer a prayer for you out of my own experience of pain and loss:
I pray that you receive guidance in a way that you can see it, the capacity to follow it, that it is easier than those that went before you, and protection from the blessing as it unfolds.